It’s been 5 days since Women’s Running announced who won the cover model contest, yet despite my excitement I’ve had a hard time talking about it.
Two simple words but the two simple words that follow that statement just don’t seem like enough.
Women’s Running chose the 8 finalists but you picked me. It still blows my mind the amount of people who rallied for me. My dad [who is a small business owner] sent out the information to his listserv and his customers and asked them to vote for me. He was the first person I called after I found out and I could hear in his voice how proud he was of me. My mother in law got every relative and all of their friends voting. I called her next and she cried, which made me cry. Every day I would hear that someone who I didn’t even think knew who I was, or even cared an ounce about me, was voting for me and they were telling their friends and their friends, friends.
When I learned over the weekend just how many people voted – it blew my mind. Here is the hard part – they weren’t just voting for me. There were 7 other awesome women that deserved to be on the cover just as much as me. In me winning they lost – there is no 2nd place in a contest like this. It reminded me why I love the sport of running so much vs other many other sports. In running there is no loser – you win just by having the courage to show up that day. Winning can mean finishing a solo 20 miler or winning can mean 2nd place in a race – it’s different for all of us but there really is no loser. So my excitement was dampened a little after reading about the heartache of other contestants. I know that type of heartache and I know I would have felt it too if I had not won.
So here I am – unable to truly express my thankfulness for all of you that voted – for those of you who set an alarm to vote once a day every day for the entire month of voting. When I say this I mean it from the bottom of my heart – THANK YOU.
I am unable to really truly thank Women’s Running for this opportunity and say what it means to me. I had no idea when I applied to be a contestant that this was their first Cover Model Contest. I will be the first reader to appear on the cover. I hope this paves the way for more readers to appear on the cover. I enjoy reading about real women, as I think others do based on the popularity of blogs. I don’t care about a model who was blessed with a nice body, or even one that worked hard to look good for a cover. I want to read about women who are managing children, or a career, or decided to pick themselves up and loose weight.
The contest winner was announced on Chloe’s 6th Birthday – it really made it that much sweeter. I shed some tears at the airport that afternoon thinking about Chloe and what I want for her life.
I don’t want her to be like me in a way. I don’t want her to endure mean girls. I don’t want her to EVER be told that she is the ugliest girl alive. I don’t want her to be made fun of. I don’t want her to loose her self worth and find herself in the position where she gives up on being healthy because she thinks she is destined to be overweight her whole life. I’m glad my daughter has only known me for the past 6 years because I’d say they have been my best 6 years. I am not perfect at all and am filled with flaws, but what she sees is a mom who runs, who eats healthy, who works hard, and who never STOPS DREAMING. I don’t want to erase my past because I know inside it has made me who I am today but I hope as a mother that she doesn’t experience the same growing pains that I did. I hope most of all that she is proud of me – that when she sees me on the cover this December that it makes her happy inside. I pray that some day she is as happy to be my daughter as I am to be her mother.
I wouldn’t have had this amazing experience if it weren’t for YOU taking the time to make a BIG DREAM of mine come true. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!
Who knew when I looked like this that I would ever one day find myself on the cover of a magazine? Certainly not me…..
DREAM BIG my friends DREAM BIG!