My alarm went off Sunday morning and I honestly had no idea why it was blaring in my ear. I thought it was the weekend? It’s Sunday, not a long run day. It literally took a couple of minutes before my mind remembered – oh shoot – it’s racing day! 

I hopped out of bed and brushed my teeth. I couldn’t decide on my race outfit – I knew I needed to wear less than I wanted too but I was feeling blah and I knew it would windy on Haines Point. I didn’t want to show up with my belly hanging out to this race.

The Veterans Day 10K attracts some of the fastest men and women in the DC area because of the monetary prizes ten deep per gender and five year age group prizes. The chance of me ever finishing in the top women is very slim.

In 2009 I ran this race with my friend Meredith, I ran a huge PR and faster than I had ever run before for any race distance with a time of 41:17. I later learned that I came in 3rd in my age group – which was very exciting and unexpected. Guess all the super fast girls stayed home that day.

I also learned after the race that in order to qualify to be ranked in the Run Washington runner rankings you have to run a 41:15 10K time twice or the equivalent in races of another distance. I was 2 seconds off from my first race ever that could get me into the rankings.

I thought the race was a fluke and I had only run that fast because I was desperately trying to keep up with Meredith. Turns out – it wasn’t a fluke. A couple of weeks later on a hilly course in Reston I ran another 41 something 10K. I started to wonder in my head. Am I fast? Can I one day show up to the start line of a race and feel like I belong there with my toe on the line?

I have only raced one other 10K since those two 41’s. It was shortly after Colton was born. I wanted my body to be as fast as it was before I had gotten pregnant but it wasn’t. It was hard for me to accept that. On a windy day I went out at a pace that was too fast. I haven’t raced a 10K since then. I don’t know if i was scared of the pain or if I was just so focused on the marathon, but the 10K wasn’t something I wanted to do.

If you ask me what distance I like – I will tell you a marathon. Why? I think I’m good at them. If you ask me if I like shorter distances I will most likely say sort of. I love racing. I love racing all distances. I just don’t enjoy the pain of the shorter races. That burning feeling in your lungs. I like the marathon type of pain. Slow and long. I don’t like short SUPER painful races – well until they are over and I forget the pain. Then I am back in love.

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I decided on a race outfit. It was the Veterans Day 10K and so I wanted to be patriotic. I put a flag tattoo on my face and pulled up my red sparkle skirt over my Saucony capri’s. I was good to go.

The car ride into DC was uneventful. I felt a little lonely. I wanted Meredith to be with me. I was scared to run super fast alone. [being fast is a state of mind – I was fast when I ran 9 minute miles – it’s all relative – my speed now is fast for me]

I found an awesome parking spot, which made me smile. It’s about the little things in life.

I walked past the Lincoln Memorial and smiled again. Eric proposed there. I feel like it is my memorial, that someway I am connected to Lincoln. Yes this sounds bizarre but it’s the way I feel. Miles’s middle name is Lincoln. I love the steps. I love standing there and looking out on the National Mall and feeling small. I love it that I am just a speck of life in this universe. When I am gone I most likely won’t be remembered for very long. That’s okay. I’m humbled by the fact that God loves me, a little speck. He cares about me, someone who isn’t famous and most likely won’t be remembered. I won’t have a memorial like Lincoln but it doesn’t mean that I am any less important to Him.

When I got to the race start I bumped into two other runners I knew – we warmed up together. It was nice to have something to take my mind off the pain that was about to come.

I saw Coach George of Capital Area Runners. He asked how I felt at Marine Corps. I told him it was idiotic to run 2 marathons 2 weeks apart, but that I had fun. He said he was glad I was finally learning. I told him that I was planning on running an ultra today. He laughed and told me I need to take care of my body, ultras can be in the future, just not now.

As much as I don’t want him to be right about things, he is. And as much as I say I don’t want him to be right, I do want him to be. He is best friends with my mom and always tells her I can go under 3:00 in the marathon one day. He said this when I was a 3:36 marathoner. It seemed crazy at the time but now that I’ve run a 3:13 maybe it’s not? Maybe he’s right? So I’ve adjusted my dreams. I’m dreaming bigger. One day I’ll get 3:10 and then I’ll go under 3:00.

What the mind believes the body can achieve!

At the start line I got a couple of looks. I felt like I didn’t belong for a second, that I should move back. I had to get myself out of that high school mentality. No I wasn’t the fastest girl here, but I did deserve to be up towards the front. In that moment I knew I would PR. I knew that I would prove I did belong.

And we were off….

I reminded myself I could blow the race in the first mile and to go out at a comfortable pace. Pacing is my biggest struggle. What felt like an under control first mile, wasn’t.

Mile 1: 6:14

YIKES. It didn’t feel too fast but I knew it was. I would feel it in the next miles. I kept the effort the same but knew the pace would be slower because of that darn first mile.

I pushed on. I caught up to a super fit girl. She looked like a barbie, long skinny legs. I was glad I was wearing my skirt – it was hiding the extra weight I had gained since Columbus Marathon. I started to have a little self doubt, but then I remembered what my mom told me last time I complained about the size of my thighs.

These thighs, while bigger than most girls my size, get me to the finish line of marathons. They get me there fast. Would I exchange my marathon PR for skinny legs? No. I need to learn to love my legs.

I passed the girl. She seemed frustrated that I was passing her. Maybe it was the skirt? Maybe it was because at the start line she didn’t think I could run in the 6’s. Who knows. Maybe I’m judging her.

She caught back up. I wanted to race her but I wanted to run my own race. Don’t get caught up racing her Dorothy. You are racing for time, not place.

I threw out a surge. I know I just said I was racing myself and not her, but I felt judged and wanted to beat her. I got competitive.

She then remarked to a guy next to us – ughhhh it’s not in my legs today. It stung. Seriously stung. I have no idea if she was saying it to make herself feel better or to try to let me know that she was faster than me[which she probably was], either way it stung. I wanted to say oh yeah that sucks – I feel you. I just ran a marathon 2 weeks ago and another one 2 weeks before that and yeah my kids – cause I have three of them – have really been running me into the ground lately. I know it’s so silly I felt like that….it’s actually even embarrassing to admit, but it’s like her saying that took away from the speed I was running.

Mile 2: 6:28
Mile 3: 6:34
Mile 4: 6:29

At this point I wanted the race to be over. I was in serious pain. This is why I don’t love short stuff – I thought to myself.

I then gave myself a pep talk. Dorothy YOU ARE FAST. If you don’t believe in yourself how can anyone else? PR girl – you deserve this – you have earned this.

I silently chanted over and over to myself – I can do all things who Christ who strengthens me.

I caught up to a woman who I admire. She is a rock star runner and I have seen her win races. I told myself to stay slightly behind her till the finish line. I would pass her at the end with my final kick – hopefully not giving her enough time to pass me back.

Mile 5: 6:36
Mile 6: 6:34

I passed – she said something nice to me. I passed a man. I ran harder than I have ever run in a race. Literally I felt like I was suffocating, but I saw 40 on the clock and I needed to get to that finish line before it turned 41.

Mile 6.2: 5:54 avg pace

I finished – caught my breath and was jumping out of my skin excited.

I heard the woman I passed say she had gone out too fast in the first mile and that she was recovering from being sick. There is no doubt in my mind that she is a faster runner, that on most days she would KILL me in a 10K, but today I beat her. It felt good.

A new 10K PR almost exactly 12 months after baby C was born! Life is good.

11 years and countless miles later my PR is now a 40:23 down from my first race which was a 10K in the time of 1:06:42 – Dream BIG my friends DREAM BIG.


Other posts you may like:

  • To read Run Washington’s Race Report on the Veterans Day 10K – Click Here
  • To read about my Molly Huddle Hat I raced in – Click Here 
  • 6.2 Bible Verses For Running A 10K – Click Here

Comments

  1. RunEatRepeat says:

    Amazing! I have no other words, just amazing :)

  2. Jamie @ Food in Real Life says:

    Wow, what an awesome and honest race recap! You ARE fast Dorothy! (incredibly fast). 10K is my favorite race distance, mostly because it's long enough for me but not too long. Congrats and keep kicking butt! You should post a pic of your race outfit, it sounds awesome!

  3. Mile Posts by Dorothy Beal says:

    Jamie!! Thank you – as soon as I get a picture I'll post it :) Brightroom is taking longer than I want them too 😉

  4. Congrats on your race! Amazing to run that fast two weeks later!

  5. Karen the "Hungry Mom" says:

    congrats dorothy! you deserve it!

  6. Jennifer says:

    Way to go!! You're a rock star! I have the same self esteem issues about my legs. I'm short and I feel like I have these short stubby legs but like you said, they get you across the finish line (and I've seen your pictures – you do not have big legs!).

  7. David H. says:

    Awesome recap. Congrats!

  8. Brigid says:

    I just checked the results looking for you. You are the 25th fastest woman! Congrats! I'm sure if you trained for shorter distances, you'd be even faster! But then your true love, the Marathon, would suffer :)

  9. Melissa says:

    More than anything (though everything you write is inspirational), I love to see your "before" and "after" times. I get caught up in assuming that someone who runs a 40:00 10k has *always* been a 40:00 10k runner. But seeing that you once ran a 1:06 10k… That changes *everything.*

  10. Christy says:

    Totally amazing and very inspirational! You are truly a woman of Christ! It radiates so brillantly through you.

  11. Anonymous says:

    Great recap! Love hearing all your thoughts during your race — i've felt the same myself at times…awesome job!

  12. The Samsons says:

    10ks are soooo hard! way to go on a great PR! Wish I could've been there drafting off of you hehe

  13. Kristen says:

    You rock Dorothy! Can't wait until I'm that fast, because I know I will be someday!

  14. Corey says:

    Congats!! I love how in your race reports (and all of your posts) you are super, super honest with what you are thinking. I love that you let us in on your insecurities and your doubts. If I saw you at a race and hadn't read your blog, I would never, ever think that you doubt how fast you are or were self-conscious about your body. But instead of me thinking "Why does she worry about her thighs? I would kill to have that body!" I think to myself, see, we all have the same insecurities no matter how fast, thin or fun we may seem. This also re-confirms that I am not completely crazy with all of the "Do I fit in?" and "Will they like me?" self-doubt that I have in similar circumstances. Thank you for being so super honest…I won't speak for everyone, but I can definitely relate.

  15. crewser says:

    Wow, you are a super fast mama! I too appreciate hearing that as runners, no matter how fast we are, all have a certain level of self doubt and envy. But, we have to work through to stay confident in ourselves and our training!

    BTW, do you do structured speedwork? If so, how many days/wk. Just curious how other runners improve their times!

  16. Ted Braun says:

    Awesome race recap. Is great when runners give unfiltered/direct insight into what is going on in their mind during a race – congratulations on a great race & time.

  17. Congrats!! 10k is by far the most painful race distance. Way to crush it out there!

  18. Mike Wells - Twitter @MikeW30 says:

    That's such an inspiring post – as always and a fantastic time! I loved reading all about your race, it was very different to mine, and much faster than my first 10K race yesterday! I always hoped to run under 45 mins one day, but after running 45:03 in my first 10K, now I'm aiming to get down to 40 before I am 40 (3 years and 2 weeks) – Dream big!

  19. Rebecca Samson says:

    Congrats girl!

  20. thethinksicanthink says:

    Your improvement is awesome and so inspiring to me. Thank you for that! I keep think, "well, maybe I've plateaued. Maybe this is the fastest I'll ever be and I should just accept that." Then, I read something like this and I dream crazy dreams again. Thanks!

  21. Woo hoo! I love it! Way to go Dorothy! You inspire me AND make me laugh. I'm glad you did this instead of running the ultra, since when you posted about that I was thinking to myself, "I hope if she gets injured she will listen to whatever the doctor says. She should keep that body healthy so she can still run when she is 40+."

  22. Brandy says:

    Dorothy, you are just plain awesome! Way to go on that PR! Seriously, you rock. You are such an inspiration and it gives me hope that if I can keep up with this running thing, that one day I'll be much faster too.

    You OWNED that race and if I was you I would throw a big ol party! :)

    Brandy

  23. Elizabeth says:

    I really love this race report. It's all about taking that leap of faith and believing that you can do something very tough. Congrats on the PR!!!!

  24. The Morris Family says:

    I love that your 10k recaps are as exciting as your marathon recaps!

    I carry my weight in my thighs also, and even though I've toned and slimmed them down a lot in the past few months, they're still rather large! However, now I love them! They carry me far and where I need to go. More importantly, when I'm running trails and come to a trail restroom, they hold me up over those gross toilets with no seat!

    Congrats on your PR!

  25. Lauren says:

    Congratulations rock star!! Seriously – I am in awe!! I have been a big lazy bum since MCM and you are out rocking races and inspiring ME to be a better runner. I loved reading this recap. Loved hearing all the thoughts in your head…the good AND the bad. You are an incredibly strong, fast runner. I'm glad you proved that to yourself on Sunday. Congrats on the PR!!

  26. Lizzy says:

    Wow what a fabulous time! I'm glad you beat those girls- you deserved it. Everyone has excuses for why it's not "their" day. I'm glad you ignored theirs and rocked the race!

  27. Jail Break says:

    What a nice race recap it is, you had a great race. It was an exciting and an interesting race. Congratulations for a great job well done and looking forward always.

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