As I type this – I’m dancing at my desk. Some Nights is playing in the background.
I’m embracing fear.
I said I was smart – maybe I am – maybe I’m not. What I ultimately decided was that I didn’t know why I was giving up a race I loved for one that I was only half as excited to run? I’m listening to my body but I’m also listening to my HEART.
9 years ago I crossed the finish line at Marine Corps Marathon and I was forever changed.
Marine Corps Marathon was my first marathon.
Marine Corps Marathon was the first marathon I ran under 4 hours.
Marine Corps Marathon was the first race I ran a BQ at – taking 24 minutes off my marathon PR 6 months after my 2nd child was born.
To say I love this race is an understatement.
While talking to THIS GIRL before last years race I said it might be my last Marine Corps Marathon for awhile. While standing at the start – I said who am I kidding? I love this race. I’ll be back next year. I only wish that she was going to be at the start with me and that #teamwatermelon was running the streets of DC & VA together.
So here I am. Ready as I will ever be for my favorite marathon – Marine Corps Marathon. I feel strong after running my longest long training run 3 weeks ago – 25 miles with a smile on my face in an average pace of 7:52.
Elizabeth’s comment on my Army Ten Miler Recap made me realize that I need to come up with goals that are ones that I can control. I met Elizabeth through my blog and over the years she has helped me work through countless emotions and thoughts. I am grateful for the time she spends writing out thoughtful comments or emailing me her thoughts.
The marathon as I’ve said time and time again is a perfectly imperfect race. You do not know what the day will bring you. Part of being a marathoner is accepting that there are many variables, that can change your time negatively, that you can’t control. What happens that day is meant to be…..
My non time related goals for Sunday:
- Finish with a smile on my face
- Find strength when I feel weak and know that I am indeed the strongest when I am the weakest – 2 Corinthians 12:10
- Trust in God’s plan for me and know that everything works together for good – Romans 8:28
- Remember that the finish line is not my only destination in life
- To run the entire race and not once think about the size of my thighs in relation to other women I see running
- To DARE to be ME. To not be embarrased about my thoughts, feelings and to embrace who I am – the good, the bad, the ugly
- To feel confident in my change of race plans and not doubt my decision
- Make my family proud
- To FEEL as happy as I did in this picture
Are you running Marine Corps Marathon on Sunday? Are you excited?!
What is one goal you can set for this race that does not relate to the time on the clock?
3 more days I just can’t wait 3 MORE DAYS!!
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