Let me fill you in on a little secret. Every single day of my life I doubt my abilities. It may seem that I have a huge amount of self confidence, but I don’t. I would like to think that I am like most women, there are days I think to myself, Hey Dorothy you are pretty cool – I’d be friends with you, and other days I think to myself honestly what are you good at? your house is a mess, you do not have time to do all the things you want to do, you don’t call your friends and family as much as you should, you don’t travel to visit the people you love most near and far, you can’t even get the dishes done every day….
I used to have LOTS of negative thoughts when it came to my running. I would say I had more negative thoughts than positive. I’m slow, I’m going to finish last, everyone is better than me, I’m not a real runner, I can only run 30 miles when everyone else can run 60 miles, my fastest mile is the slowest out of anyone, why do you bother running anyways? last in your age group is nothing to brag about……
I would say that the negative started turning to positive the more people told me I could not do something.
I wanted to run my first marathon faster than Oprah ran hers. People told me to be happy to just finish.
I beat Oprah.
Puffy Daddy(now P.Diddy) ran a marathon faster than me weeks after my first. I wanted to beat him. People told me it was not possible to run my second marathon faster than my first, weeks after my first.
I beat Puffy Daddy with a 5 minute PR.
I ran Chicago Marathon on a whim when I was training for Marine Corps one year. People told me I was not ready yet and that I was going to mess up my chances to run well at Marine Corps. It would be impossible to PR in the middle of a training cycle.
I PR’ed by 5 minutes.
Marine Corps came around and people told me I had already run my PR and could not race well again. Why run Marine Corps, just give up.
I ran. I pr’ed. I went under 4 hours with a 9 minute PR.
After I was pregnant with my first child I decided that when I was back in running shape I was going for a Boston Qualifier. People told me it would be impossible to take 20 minutes off my marathon time after not having run a marathon in 3 years and having had 2 kids.
I BQ’ed with a 24 minute PR 6 months after my 2nd baby was born.
People told me you could not run fast at Boston, why even try? Just run for fun.
I ran Boston in 3:39 for another BQ.
I said I wanted to go under 3:30 in the marathon. There were doubters. I knew in my heart it was not a matter of going under 3:30 but how far under 3:30 I would go.
I ran a 3:21 and WON the marathon.
This year many people in my life thought it would be crazy to run a marathon 4 months post baby #3 and that there was no way I could race it or try to run fast.
I came, I ran – 3:26 on 3/26 – my 2nd fastest marathon at the time.
Again I got the – why try to run fast at Boston, it is simply not possible.
I came, I ran – 3:30 – another BQ.
A 3rd marathon less than 2 weeks after Boston? I already knew what people would say. I woke up and decided I would attempt a triple, for no other reason than to see if I could do it.
I came, I ran, 3:23 – my 2nd fastest marathon to date. 2nd Female overall.
My point is not to brag, it never is. I do not think I am a super woman, I don’t think I’m great. Many days of my life I question my self worth……
My point is to tell you that if I can do this, you can do this. Take all the negative in your life [people, places, events, relationships, etc] and turn them into positive……When I am feeling weak I find my strong by doing something I NEVER THOUGHT I COULD DO. I take all the negative and use it as fuel to push me faster and farther than I ever thought possible.
When I ran 10 miles pushing all 3 of my kids in the triple, I thought it was one of the hardest things I had ever done. I voiced to friends that I would never attempt to go that far again —- too hard.
What? Too hard? Okay mind…..guess what that means? I will find my strong, I will tell you that you are wrong.
I ran 13.1 miles last week pushing all 3 of my kids in my triple running stroller in 1:55. Faster than I ran my 1st half marathon by 3 minutes!
Today I attempted a timed mile with the triple, because again my mind had told me that it was a stupid thing to do. I could never run fast pushing 3 kids.
My goal was sub 8. I told myself I would be very, very happy seeing a 7.
I ran a 6:31.
Take that mind. I found my strong. I enjoy taking the seemingly impossible in my life and making it happen. Dream BIG my friends.