It was the topic of a blog post a couple of weeks ago and this one word still seems to sum up my life right now.
The tip that helped the most from reader comments, and is still helping, was about breaking up tasks/accomplishments in to small things. On days I do the dishes, I consider myself a success. If I clean the bathroom, I’m a success. If I call a friend I’ve been meaning to call, I’m a success. If I read to my son, I’m a success.
It is not that everything I have to do in the day is something I do not want to do. I want to read to my son, I want to catch up with friends. It’s just that there is SOOO much to be done in a day that it all adds up to an overwhelming amount of things. Things that I want to do, need to do, would like to do, or dream of doing.
Because of this I keep asking myself, why I blog my thoughts? If I ceased to exist in the writing/blogging world – I may be missed for a day or two but mostly people would move on. I’d venture to say that most of you might not even notice for awhile that there was no update from me in your google reader.
|Running with God’s light shining down on me.|
I love running.
I love God.
I love faith.
I love how God, running, faith – all go together.
I love sharing the things I love with people because I want everyone to experience the amazing feelings I have had. When I finished my 3rd leg at Hood To Coast, Enthusiastic Runner said to me, you are the HAPPIEST runner I’ve ever met. It was one of the nicest compliments ever. I’m on a crazy high when I’m running and racing, I’m beyond happy and I love that someone could tell.
I hope that LOVE comes across in my words.
I blog for myself mostly, to get my thoughts on paper and also share my knowledge with people who want or need it.
I used to be that person that told everyone what they were doing wrong, or how they could do something better, or how I learned to do it. I was a know it all, even though I didn’t know it all. It was the only thing I felt I was good at, telling others what to do, so I did.
Then I realized that sometimes people don’t tell you stories so you can fix them, they just want you to listen. The more I became a listener in *real* life the more I started to blog. It’s a way for me to put my thoughts, advice, and words out there – but in a way that you don’t have to *listen* if you choose not to. This way I am a better listener to others.
I also blog for YOU. I’d be lying if I said I did not think about my readers when I write. I do. I try to think of stuff that will motivate you, or help you, or make you smile. I know that my story is NOT that unique. There are plenty of people in this world who have struggled and have overcame those struggles. People who are still working through their issues, and will continue to be a work in progress for their whole life.
I’m not even the only one who pushes a triple stroller, or manages a hectic household while training for a marathon. I think though that’s what makes me SPECIAL. Is that I am just a regular person. I’m just like you. Well maybe you don’t push a triple stroller on your runs, but I hope that when you read my blog you find something that you can identify with.
I hope that my words help you on runs. That when you are struggling, you think of me struggling. That you think hey if that girl can loose 30+ pounds and drop an hour from her marathon maybe I can to. Maybe all it takes is what she says, DREAM BIG.
As the year moves on I can’t promise I will blog every day, even though I assure you I have enough words floating around in this OCD mind that I probably could blog 12 hours a day every day. I’m admitting to you that thought it seems like I can do it all, accomplish it all….there are times I can’t. There are times when I feel weak and need to turn to God for my strength.
I feel weak right now. Strong because I know where I want to go, but weak because I don’t know the path to take and have what I consider TOO much on my plate. Maybe we all have too much to do, maybe it’s true that in this word of instant social media, that we are just hurrying up our lives, creating more chaos, rather than simplifying. I don’t know.
I long ago let go of making plans for my life, because as I have said before God’s plans for my life are bigger and better than my own. Yet I still find myself wishing that I woke up every morning with a note from God that told me what was important today, what wasn’t. Who mattered, and who didn’t. What friendships were worth investing in and which ones I should let go. I wish I knew the days that YOU needed a blog post from me. By lifting someone else up, I lift myself up.
What I do know is that I want to start making my moments matter. I want to get off the phone when I’m in the car and actually talk to my kids. I want to sit in their playroom and watch cartoons with them, rather than seeing that as an excuse to get away from them. I want to snuggle them for an extra minute or two because they asked, and because they won’t always be this little.
I want to be happy in the now and not worry about the future.
I run and I blog because I feel like it is a gift that has been given to me. Your running is a gift to you as well. Remember that every day. You do not HAVE to run – you GET to run.
Romans 8:18 — I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.
Are you living a fruitful life? Do you make your moments matter?