I’m a big fan of Kristin Armstrong. She’s my kind of chick and if I had a celebrity crush, she would be mine.

She has a blog, called Mile Markers, simply put – it’s awesome.

She wrote a post about #JFR and I really loved it, because it’s sort of what I Run This Body is to me. If you haven’t read it, you can check it out HERE.

For some people my favorite mantra means “I ran this body 16 miles today” {I’m looking at you momma}

but for me, it means that NO matter what life throws at me, no matter how crappy I feel, I Run My Body….that my body is not in charge of me. That I have decided not to make myself a victim of my own life, but to endure anything big or small that comes my way.

It then is ironic to me {though ever since Alanis Morisette’s song – I’m not sure if I am using the word correctly} that these days I can’t run my body. My body is running the SHHHHHt out of me.

Try as I might to JRF, sometimes my body says OH HELLZ NO and I end up on the side of the trail with the trail up above my head, throwing up. It’s not fun.

It doesn’t happen on every run, just in case you think I’m a crazy person and am pushing through something I shouldn’t. {I actually can not push through once the dizziness feeling sets in. It literally stops me in my tracks.}

Yesterday as I was walking on the W&OD trail, after a failed long run, bikes whizzing past me, I fought off tears. The devil on my shoulder said – what a joke you are Dorothy, you can’t even run, you can’t even put mind over matter – I Run This Body – bahahahahah. The angel on the other shoulder – who spoke nicer to me, than I speak to me – said OH Dorothy, this is not your fault, you are Running Your Body – despite how you feel you keep trying – you will figure this out – you will.

I posted a lament on facebook, not because I wanted anyone’s sympathy. I don’t need anyone to feel sorry for me, in fact I don’t want you to feel sorry for me. I’m not dying. I have something going on in my body and I will figure out what it is. I am an advocate for myself and I won’t stop searching for answers till I find them. In the process I may have some good runs. I’m more than likely going to also have more that suck.

Least you think I’m just throwing caution to the wind and running when I shouldn’t be – I’ve been to a doctor – multiple doctors in fact and there are precautions I am taking to make sure that I am keeping myself safe. So while yes, I have gotten sick a bunch of times, for now my doctor thinks it’s still okay to running, or trying to run anyways.

So why am I even talking about this? It’s not for sympathy – that’s for sure – because I’m putting myself out there to be judged – to have people say I’m an idiot for running now when I don’t feel great.

I’m writing about this for a couple of reasons –

First – maybe there is someone out there who is experiencing some of the same things or has experienced this in the past and can give me some advice and/or help. I’ve had a couple of awesome ladies write me/call me and I can tell you that despite getting sick – I have more energy than I have in years thanks in part to some small changes from their suggestions.

Second – I like sharing what I learn in hopes that if someone else is googling the crap out of how they feel and stumbles on this post – maybe it will help them. I’m thankful for the bloggers I’ve found that have documented some of their issues.

Last – I can’t act like running is great for me all the time, when it’s not. Doesn’t mean I love it any less, or that I’m going to give up on it, I’m not.

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Something I have found out in this process is that my kidneys are not functioning as best they could be and are in the needs to be monitored range. My GFR rate is 80 now, down from 89 in 2013. What is GFR? This link that takes you to the National Kidney Foundation explains. This could be affecting how I feel or it could have nothing to do with anything and it’s just something that I have learned in the process….

Basically my number puts me in the “Kidney damage with mild loss of kidney function” range – when I found this out I was like okay cool so what can I do to fix that or improve my number?

Nothing.

Let me repeat that. Nothing.

You can not improve your GFR – once it’s down it’s down and what you have to do at that point is prevent it from going any lower. The estimated GFR number for my age is 107. While your GFR rate does naturally decline with age, an 80 at age 33 is a sign I need to pay attention to this. {This information is coming from my doctor and The National Kidney Foundation}

Family history matters. My grandfather is currently on dialysis for his kidneys and is on a modified diet. Three times a week he sits there for hours at a time and has his blood filtered by a machine because his kidneys no longer can clean his blood. I do not ever want to get to that point.

One possible sign that your kidney’s aren’t functioning up to par is excess potassium. Read more about potassium and your kidneys HERE.

My level is currently a 5.3. This puts me in the CAUTION ZONE – meaning I need to be aware of how much potassium I am eating.

I’m telling you this because had I known anything about my kidneys and my GFR I would have monitored my level more carefully and I would have taken measures to help prevent any decline in the number.

I’m going to keep trying to put one foot in front of the other and maybe that is JFR’ing after all….

3 miles this morning with no issues.

 

 

I’m not a doctor, dietitian, or nutritionist. This blog is an online journal about my personal experiences. Your situation may differ from mine and you should always seek the advice of a trained medical professional with your personal medical issues. This information is not intended to diagnose, treat, cure or prevent any disease.

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