There is something about a long run that I love and hate all at the same time.

When I don’t HAVE to do long runs. I MISS them.

I find the distance intimidating yet exhilarating.

December is usually a blah month for me. It sounds crazy since it’s a time for celebration, but the post marathon blues coupled with the stress of finding the right gift and finding it in time, makes me blah.

Two weeks ago I was feeling especially blah. I needed a week of lots of running to jumpstart my new year, before the new year.

So I ran and ran and ran and ran.

On Saturday I planned to go between 10 and 13 miles. I started out with a friend, which always makes the miles pass faster and ended alone.

The more I ran, the more excited I got. It was the farthest I had run since Marine Corps Marathon. I was in a zone. Nothing could break me. Nothing could slow me.

I got faster the more I thought about 2012. I got faster the more I thought about how strong I have gotten over the past 11 years of racing. I thought about the girl I used to be. I thought about the girl I am today.

I found peace. Peace that comes from knowing I am forgiven no matter what I do. Peace that comes from knowing what life is really all about [hint it’s not money or pr’s].

I reflected.

I kept running – 10 miles, 13 miles, 15 miles, 17 miles.

Mile 17 was hard, but I repeated out loud IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING – IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING.

[If you had seen me you would have laughed. I’m sure I looked crazy]

I was crazy. I was running my 87th mile of the week. I wanted to cry.

When I started running I couldn’t make it half a mile. Literally.

To think that I could run 87 miles in a week and finish that last mile at a 7:27 pace seems IMPOSSIBLE TO ME but IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING.

  • Mile 1: 8:28
  • Mile 2: 8:20
  • Mile 3: 8:21
  • Mile 4: 8:16
  • Mile 5: 8:24
  • Mile 6: 8:23
  • Mile 7: 8:27
  • Mile 8: 8:28
  • Mile 9: 8:19
  • Mile 10: 8:18
  • Mile 11: 8:03
  • Mile 12: 8:03
  • Mile 13: 7:47
  • Mile 14: 8:06
  • Mile 15: 7:50
  • Mile 16: 7:49
  • Mile 17: 7:27

You are only limited by the limits you place on yourself. I have no limits when it comes to running. I believe and am willing to work for what I want to achieve.

3:05 seems IMPOSSIBLE but I know it’s not.

Sunday night I ran 3 miles, easy, alone. 90 miles for the week. The MOST I have ever run in one week.

2012 here I come. 3:05 – I got you.

What has empowered you in 2011? What dreams have you achieved? What barriers have you broken through?

Do you BELIEVE in yourself? If you don’t believe in YOU how can you expect others to?

Comments

  1. You are beyond amazing. I’ll be rooting you on every second of those 3 hours and 5 minutes :)

    2011 was crazy – we moved to Washington State, without knowing a soul. Since, we’ve broken many barriers in numerous relationships [work, personal], and have found an amazing running community as well.

    2012 will be my year, for sure.

  2. PS – I love reading/writing numbers posts. They definitely play a role in our lives, don’t they??

  3. Love this!! Been having some runs like that myself and end up looking entirely goofy as I run with the biggest grin on my face. Love it! Excited to see what 2012 brings!

  4. Becoming a mother has empowered me in more areas than one; as a runner, wife and a friend. My beautiful baby girl is a dream come true and watching her grow and develop into who God made her to be, knowing her has exceeded all my expectations. The barrier I have broken through this year is being who I am and loving who God made me to be and realizing that I’m constantly growing into who He wants me to be and not getting upset with the things that are still developing within me.
    Yes I do believe in myself and I know that All things are possible! It’s just reminding myself of this when the storms of life surround me and I feel the pressure of the circumstances! Look up…look at Me says Jesus and focusing on How big He is and knowing He is within me makes the problems seem small.
    You inspire me Dorothy!! Thank you so much for sharing you!! This post brought me happy tears, it helped me focus on the good things in life, Thank-you!!

  5. Love this! I will think of this post next time I am out running to give me strength :)

  6. Kortni says:

    You are such an inspiration. I love to read how you inspire yourself through every run and to every goal. I sometimes think I am a little nuts because running is my escape and how I refocus. I am so glad to know I am not the only one who “needs” to run! Your words encourage me on all my long runs!!

  7. I love your words…so real, thank you for sharing and keep them coming strong girl!

  8. Dorothy, I’m interested to know how you structure your runs during the week – for example, what did your 90mile week look like broken down? Not that I’m planning to copy what you do (90miles is way too much for me at this point) but I’m just curious :)

  9. I’ve been feeling blah about everything this week since I’m in the middle of final exams. I needed this post! I’m now so pumped for tonight’s track workout and for a new year of running in 2012!

  10. Samantha says:

    Good for you for putting that 3:05 out into the world!! I will be rooting for you in 2012!

  11. Dorothy – I’m heading out the door for my long run. I’ve been reading all of your old posts, and today happened to stumble onto this one. It’s exactly what I needed. I’m going to reach 75+kms for my weekly total this week, something I have never done before. Impossible is nothing – you always say the right things. I know this is an old post, but wanted to let you know that ALL of your posts are incredibly motivating. YOU are motivating. Have a great weekend, or, as they say in France, “Bon Week-end!”.

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