Columbus Marathon has a unique way of tracking runners. Rather than the typical text messages or online tracking they will tweet your time or post it on facebook as you cross check points around the course.
|I plan on being *this* happy on Sunday!|
I signed up for it. This is a huge step in the right direction for me and here is why.
It stresses me knowing that people are tracking me or know how I am doing in a marathon as I run. This is why I enjoy doing marathons that NO one knows I am running. I secretly dash off and run 26.2 alone with out a care in the world.
Why does it stress me? Because I feel judged.
You know all those people who you tell your goal time to and they say oh you can do it – but secretly they think you can’t do it – and when you don’t do it then they say to someone else – oh I knew she couldn’t.
Do you think that statement just sounded crazy? Yes it does. My mind always thinks the worst. I think people are talking about me in a negative way because I am self conscious. I project my own insecurities onto others.
In reality – I’m pretty sure I am the only person who truly cares about the time I run in a marathon. Most people in my life were proud of me when I ran a 4:56 marathon and have no idea the difference between that and my 3:21. A marathon is a marathon to them.
It’s a step in the right direction, because I am not worried if people are judging me, talking about me, or thinking negative things. Why? Because most likely they are not doing any of those things, and if they are then I don’t want to be friends with them anyways.
I plan on using Tweet My Time to help me. I hope that the updates show me starting out slower and getting faster. I hope my projected marathon time gets better as the morning goes on. I also hope that if you see a tweet that you think a happy fast thought for me or you say a little prayer. I’m going to think of the virtual and real support group I have – I’m going to think of all the amazing people in my life and know that each and every one of you are routing for me and not against me.
The doubt demons won’t get the best of me this week. 4 more days.
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