One of the things I think about when I take time off from writing here….is that I have more time to actually RUN and do the things I talk about, rather than just talk about them.
I think at the beginning of every month and certainly every year it is good to analyze your priorities.
Besides the usual priorities in my life – my kids and my family – I want to make myself a priority.
This means when choosing between writing here, cleaning the house up, doing the dishes, or running – 9 times out of 10 I’m going to pick running. Running makes me feel better from the inside out. When I am having a rough day, nothing cures it quite like a run. When I am having a GREAT day nothing feels more celebratory than a good run. Running is so much more to me than just a way to exercise and burn calories – though I do enjoy those side effects.
Today I fit in more than I’ve been able to lately. Cleaning, dishes, a Jillian Michaels DVD, running and now taking a moment to reflect and record here.
Each run teaches me something. Today’s lesson was – going the extra point two only works if you are doing it for internal reasons and not because you are trying to impress anyone or brag.
I had exactly 55 minutes to fit in a run before I needed to be at the bus stop to get Chloe. I started out the run at an 8:30 pace and slowly dropped the pace down.
Note: when I am on the treadmill I never slow the pace [unless it is for cool down miles]. I only increase the pace as I run. I do it little by little knowing that whatever pace I increase it to is the pace I am committed to running the entire rest of the run. This teaches me pacing and also teaches me how to start slow and finish fast.
When I was at 4.9 miles I realize that I had 14 minutes to finish my run. I wanted to get in 7 miles and the only way that was going happen was if I ran sub 7 for both miles. I started to drop the pace faster and faster. My chest heaved and I regretted each time I upped the speed. at 6 miles in I realized that I didn’t have time to go the .2 on the end of this run and still get Chloe. Maybe I should just stop at 6.2 so I had my .2. That would have been cheating myself. Was I running the extra point two on runs so I could brag about it, or was I running the extra point two because I want to push myself this year.
I ran 7 miles in 53:35 – 7:35 average. [I started at 8:30 pace - finished at 6:15 pace]
I jumped off the treadmill ran downstairs and out of the house to get Chloe.
My heart was still racing as we walked into the house.
I had more in me.
Back to the treadmill I went to run 1.2 for a cool down.
It was the best run I’ve had in a long time because it built back my confidence. My motivation has been wavering lately. It does every winter. When I first started running marathons I only ran them in the fall because I hated the winter and being cold. Once I qualified for Boston that changed. I had to train for a spring marathon. After Boston I craved the feeling of entering the warmer weather fit and thus began the cycle of fall and spring marathons.
Last night I reflected why I didn’t want to run a spring marathon.
It occured to me I was still wrapped up in my time and speed and wasn’t being true to my inner self.
I may PR this spring, I may not. I don’t know what the outcome will be.
I’m learning to embrace not knowing what the future holds.
Being TRUE to myself I decided that I needed to train for a marathon this spring. SO I signed up for one and then I signed up for another and it felt DARN GOOD.
I’ve had an inner smile I feel in my heart ever since I hit the send payment button. It was a small price to pay for what I know will be more memorable days.
Going #theextrapointtwo in running doesn’t always have to literally be .2. Don’t cheat yourself – push yourself.
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