I often come across as someone who is very confident. I am not.
I have struggles just like every one else.
My mind is not made of steel. The weaker I feel in life the more I pour myself into running. It is not to run away but to rather run towards something.
I’ve been having a pity party for myself all weekend. Thing haven’t been going the way I’d like them too and I’ve been rather confused on many different levels. Cryptic I know. The point is this. You only get a glimpse of the lives of many people [bloggers, friends, family] – you don’t know all that goes on in their lives. You can choose to judge or you can give people the benefit of the doubt.
The judging hurts most not from people you don’t know but from people you do know. That doesn’t mean you can’t CHOOSE to forgive them just the same.
Today I was emailing back and forth with one of my favorite bloggers/tweeters and she reminded me that EVERYTHING happens for a reason.
It’s easy to say it – but another thing to live it when your heart feels a little broken or wounded.
I’m done with my pity party. I am done feeling sorry for myself. I am done feeling as if I need to put together a broken heart.
I am choosing to learn from the situation and know that everything happens for a reason. There is a silver lining even if I can’t see it right now.
I want to CHOOSE today to remember that LIFE is too short to spend it unhappy.
Even writing this post makes me realize how silly a pity party is. I am sad. snappy. moody. What did my little people do to deserve a mom who feels this way or acts this way towards them? In reality it sort of feels a bit selfish of me to be so self involved in worrying about how I feel.
In the spirit of choosing to MOVE on and be HAPPY here are some thing making me happy!
This little guy started really trying to talk last week. It’s adorable and I love his attempts at so many different words.
This little guy turned four and had a wonderful birthday party at Chuck E Cheese surrounded by his friends.
This little girl had her end of year concert. End of year means that Kindergarten is almost over and I am only months away from having a first grader.
I registered for another marathon. Because that makes total sense to me [insert smiley face]
I had a good solo 12 miler Sunday – two weeks post Boston with an 8:08 average. The speed is slowly returning back to my legs.
I had a nice, cool, quick – solo run this morning. A rare treat for a weekday run.
Mile 1: 7:50
Mile 2: 7:26
Mile 3: 7:29
Mile 4: 7:06
Mile 5: 7:06
37:07 – 7:24 avg. Running fast makes me feel good inside. Something about pushing yourself and feeling breathless that makes you forget about everything else for a brief moment in time.
What do you think of pity parties? Ridiculous or totally needed?
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