Do you have those days when you just can’t seem to put your finger on it, but you feel blue?
Or the days that you sort-of-can put your finger on it but you aren’t really sure how to explain it to anyone other than yourself?
I get this way post marathon. Each and EVERY time this happens to me.
Post marathon I wonder why I run them. Even races that go according to plan, make me feel blue a week or two later. The build up of months and months of training are realized on this one amazing day and then it’s over.
I frantically search for another race I want to run and inevitably it is a marathon. I talk myself out of it knowing that I am not a super human and that I need to rest. I talk myself out of it because I already have too much going on to run a marathon every month. I talk myself out of it because of the cost. I talk myself out of it because I still want to keep up my speed and I somewhat believe that you can’t have quantity in the marathon and still reach your peak potential in speed [but don't quote me on this because my thoughts on this are ever changing].
I like the shorter distances but they just aren’t something I feel strong at. I feel strong in a marathon even when I am having an off day.
I don’t feel strong in a 10K. I feel like I am dying a slow death. I feel the lactic acid in my muscles burning. I feel my lungs tightening. I don’t enjoy it. I run them to get faster at the marathon.
I don’t feel strong in a 10 miler. Just when I find my groove – it’s over. I’m not sure how to pace a ten miler. I know logically how to pace it but in practice I’ve never done it well enough to finish and say wow I just gave it my all. I typically end up feeling like I have more in the tank and wonder why I wasn’t able to put that energy into the race.
I enjoy the 1/2 distance but always find myself thinking during a race – when is this going to be over - how am I only at mile such and such?
I don’t feel this way in most marathons. The miles click off and I find myself happier and happier as the miles go on.
It’s a rainy day today and I usually love the rain – but it’s not helping to snap me out of my post marathon blues.
It’s not the finishers medals I’m after, or even the number of marathons on my tally.
I am after that fleeting feeling that I get during 26.2.
I am after the post marathon tiredness. Not the tiredness that comes in the days and weeks after – but that moment when you sit down on the curb and think to yourself – oh yes you did just run a marathon.
Do you get this way after marathons? Why do you run them? What feeling are you chasing? Is it a feeling?