Overwhelmed.

It was the topic of a blog post a couple of weeks ago and this one word still seems to sum up my life right now.

The tip that helped the most from reader comments, and is still helping, was about breaking up tasks/accomplishments in to small things. On days I do the dishes, I consider myself a success. If I clean the bathroom, I’m a success. If I call a friend I’ve been meaning to call, I’m a success. If I read to my son, I’m a success.

It is not that everything I have to do in the day is something I do not want to do. I want to read to my son, I want to catch up with friends. It’s just that there is SOOO much to be done in a day that it all adds up to an overwhelming amount of things. Things that I want to do, need to do, would like to do, or dream of doing.

Because of this I keep asking myself, why I blog my thoughts? If I ceased to exist in the writing/blogging world – I may be missed for a day or two but mostly people would move on. I’d venture to say that most of you might not even notice for awhile that there was no update from me in your google reader.

Running with God’s light shining down on me.

I love running.

I love God.

I love faith.

I love how God, running, faith – all go together.

I love sharing the things I love with people because I want everyone to experience the amazing feelings I have had. When I finished my 3rd leg at Hood To Coast, Enthusiastic Runner said to me, you are the HAPPIEST runner I’ve ever met. It was one of the nicest compliments ever. I’m on a crazy high when I’m running and racing, I’m beyond happy and I love that someone could tell.

I hope that LOVE comes across in my words.

I blog for myself mostly, to get my thoughts on paper and also share my knowledge with people who want or need it.

I used to be that person that told everyone what they were doing wrong, or how they could do something better, or how I learned to do it. I was a know it all, even though I didn’t know it all. It was the only thing I felt I was good at, telling others what to do, so I did.

Then I realized that sometimes people don’t tell you stories so you can fix them, they just want you to listen. The more I became a listener in *real* life the more I started to blog. It’s a way for me to put my thoughts, advice, and words out there – but in a way that you don’t have to *listen* if you choose not to. This way I am a better listener to others.

I also blog for YOU. I’d be lying if I said I did not think about my readers when I write. I do. I try to think of stuff that will motivate you, or help you, or make you smile. I know that my story is NOT that unique. There are plenty of people in this world who have struggled and have overcame those struggles. People who are still working through their issues, and will continue to be a work in progress for their whole life.

I’m not even the only one who pushes a triple stroller, or manages a hectic household while training for a marathon. I think though that’s what makes me SPECIAL. Is that I am just a regular person. I’m just like you. Well maybe you don’t push a triple stroller on your runs, but I hope that when you read my blog you find something that you can identify with.

I hope that my words help you on runs. That when you are struggling, you think of me struggling. That you think hey if that girl can loose 30+ pounds and drop an hour from her marathon maybe I can to. Maybe all it takes is what she says, DREAM BIG.

As the year moves on I can’t promise I will blog every day, even though I assure you I have enough words floating around in this OCD mind that I probably could blog 12 hours a day every day. I’m admitting to you that thought it seems like I can do it all, accomplish it all….there are times I can’t. There are times when I feel weak and need to turn to God for my strength.

I feel weak right now. Strong because I know where I want to go, but weak because I don’t know the path to take and have what I consider TOO much on my plate. Maybe we all have too much to do, maybe it’s true that in this word of instant social media, that we are just hurrying up our lives, creating more chaos, rather than simplifying. I don’t know.

I long ago let go of making plans for my life, because as I have said before God’s plans for my life are bigger and better than my own. Yet I still find myself wishing that I woke up every morning with a note from God that told me what was important today, what wasn’t. Who mattered, and who didn’t. What friendships were worth investing in and which ones I should let go. I wish I knew the days that YOU needed a blog post from me. By lifting someone else up, I lift myself up.

What I do know is that I want to start making my moments matter. I want to get off the phone when I’m in the car and actually talk to my kids. I want to sit in their playroom and watch cartoons with them, rather than seeing that as an excuse to get away from them. I want to snuggle them for an extra minute or two because they asked, and because they won’t always be this little.

I want to be happy in the now and not worry about the future.

I run and I blog because I feel like it is a gift that has been given to me. Your running is a gift to you as well. Remember that every day. You do not HAVE to run – you GET to run.

Romans 8:18 — I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.

Are you living a fruitful life? Do you make your moments matter?

Comments

  1. Thank you for your post. And yes I would notice if you were gone. I was just writing my thoughts done today and one of the things that has been swirling in my mind is SIMPLIFY! When my life gets out of control I feel a heavy burden on my heart to simplify. And it is happening again….I best listen….

  2. workout mommy says:

    i so want this: "I want to be happy in the now and not worry about the future. "

    and also this "lose 30+ pounds and drop an hour from her marathon"!

    but i can't seem to find the balance for either. :(

    i read your blog because you are definitely an inspiration to me and posts like this make me feel like I'm not alone out here. Thank you! :)

  3. {lifeasa}RunningMom says:

    You are such an inspiration and I definitely feel like I "connect" to you even though I do not push a triple stroller.

    It is a choice to run but I also believe that for me, my spirit needs me to run to learn the lessons I am supposed to in this life. I am so thankful for your post today to remind me of that as I go into a big weekend for myself.

    And if your blog vanished, I really would notice. I wish I could say that for all of the blogs out there but I can't. Keep up the great work!

  4. 321delish.com says:

    You are an inspiration:-)

  5. Keep your eyes on the prize – honor the Lord in all we do. Your blog is awesome and I appreciate hearing your struggles and joys because I'm encouraged to know I'm not alone. God bless you and your family. Cherish every moment and please keep blogging!! :)

  6. First of all .. I WOULD MISS YOU! and I would notice. You are one of the handful I look forward to every time it shows up and one of the ones I skip many to read! I look so forward to your blogs and you sharing. You are such a light to so many and with tears welled in my eyes, I Thank YOU! You inspire me! Your heart is unmatchable and so apparent in your words. I so too want to make the moments matter and I will think of this post often and most importantly tonight with my own family. THANK YOU! You are an angel and always give what I need the most … (ok I promise I am done with the mushiness but you move me!)

  7. Rubes Creek Trail Running says:

    Great post, Ms. Beal. I love how everything fits into one package as well. I use a lot of my longer runs as prayer time instead of time to just think. I still like to just think on long runs, but prayer is more powerful. Thanks!

  8. "God's plans for my life are bigger and better than my own. Yet I still find myself wishing that I woke up every morning with a note from God that told me what was important today, what wasn't…"

    I literally asked Him for a note last night! It is not easy to surrender our will, especially when we think we know what's best for us:) Girl THANK YOU for your honesty. I take comfort in knowing He is in control and i am thankful He used your words today to speak to me. Keep fighting the fight, stay the course. We're all in this together. xo

  9. this is a great post! it is difficult to be present. I type this while snuggling with my 10 wk old baby. i should get off the computer, now. ;)

  10. Kristin Miller says:

    Thanks for the post! I read your blog because it's real and gives me hope as a mommy in the not yet future (With the next couple of years!) that I will somehow be able to maintain doing what I love: running. Thanks for being real!

  11. Kristin Miller says:

    PS. I'm memorizing your 26.2 scriptures so I can say them as I run my first marathon, NYC!

  12. I am probably one of your older readers. I am a 48 year old mom to 3 teenagers and wife to one fabulous husband. I have been a sporadic runner, but mainly off for the past 10 years. My daughter runs cross country and track and had been suggesting that I start running again. She thought it would be special if we ran together. I told her I was too old, had too many varicose veins, too, too rickety….etc. Somehow I found your blog and when I read your story about your marathon MOM encouraging you to start running, I knew my days of excuses were over. I'm not ready to keep up with her pace yet, but I am slowly improving. Your blog keeps my trying. I look forward to all of your posts and have read most of your old ones. They are all fantastic and so worth reading. I would love it if your mom blogged as well!
    I pray God will continue to guide you and help you prioritize and enjoy the life he's given you!
    Donna

  13. Pemberton Family says:

    Oh Dorothy. I LOVE YOUR BLOG! I could easily read you every single day, and trust me I would notice if you didn't post. I am loving how much you are posting lately too. You say exactly how I feel. Though I don't push a triple jogger I do get creative and run & push my 3 boys in a double jogger (it won't work much longer as my youngest is starting to get bigger and my oldest isn't going to fit at his feet anymore:)). I'm not a marathoner (just half's for now) but I work part time and wish I too could sit and watch cartoons with my kids instead of taking that time to do something I want to do and let the television entertain them. I can completely relate, I am constantly overwhelmed, I constantly feel like a bad fried/mother/wife/teacher/etc. Its so hard to fit it all in, I have chosen to put my husband and kids first for now and try and let the other things go (which is not easy for my type A personality. I love God, Running and reading your blog so please keep writing! Praying for you. Thank you for your honesty!

    Carolyn

  14. Corrina Beana says:

    My personal mantra, what gets me through the crazy days, is "embrace this day". I need to, want to live it sooo much. Because THIS is the day the Lord made, whatever it holds, whatever I get done or whatever i don't get done, I need to rejoice in it. I need to and want to live this way so much I changed my blog name and theme to it! http://www.embracethisday.com/2011/08/welcome-come-on-in-but-dont-look-in.html I still fail miserably some days, but I'm always trying.

  15. Like Anonymous Donna, I am an older reader who isn't pushing a triple stroller (you are incredible) or super speedy (again, incredible), yet I often find some piece (or many) in your posts that speaks to me.

    Such a lovely, heart-felt piece, Dorothy…as lovely and strong and giving as its writer :)

    You would be very missed if you ceased blogging. Very.

  16. Christy @ My Dirt Road Anthem: A Runner's Blog says:

    I love your blog and find you such an inspiration, your posts are heartfelt and meaningful. Please keep blogging I would miss you. I am so excited to wear a Team Sparkle skirt because of you. :)

  17. thethinksicanthink says:

    Great post. I hope I'm making my moments matter. Thanks for reminding me to make the most of each day :)

  18. Amanda@runninghood says:

    Triple?? I thought I was awesome for my double jogger! ha! So wish I would have met you at HTC Dorothy. So much of you…I find myself relating to. Your love for running, OCD brain (ha!), devotion to your family and self, commitment to excellence…and I relate well to what you say about blogging. I'm really glad I started my blog almost a year ago. It has been wonderful for me in expressing myself, sharing my joys and passions, and connecting with others. Thanks for you.

  19. Nicole Wagner Makeup says:

    Yes…I can relate to this A LOT. This year I have had to re-prioritize. Hire 2 girls to work for me so I can have a little more home time with my growing girls (now almost 4 and 7). I have realized that I do NOT want to wake up one day and realize that I missed really important things. I can also relate to your love (obsession maybe-it's that darn OCD brain) for running. I just can't explain whY i love it so much to people like my husband, who just doesn't get it. "meeting" other women in this blogger world who are just like me has helped tremendously!!
    thanks for sharing, I'm so glad I found your blog!!

  20. This is awesome. To me, your story is unique and you are such an inspiration <3 Keep blogging or I will cry!

  21. eliz@thesweetlife says:

    For me in times like this, there are two things I remember. One, be gentle with yourself and kind to yourself. Two, God doesn't want us to just get by, running from one to-to-list item to the next–he wants us to thrive, blossom, grown, and so on. Thanks for sharing!

  22. Thank you for this post – it is very timely for me. I appreciate you taking the time to write it.

    "I run and I blog because I feel like it is a gift that has been given to me. Your running is a gift to you as well. Remember that every day. You do not HAVE to run – you GET to run."

    I am running the Air Force Half Marathon this weekend, and I feel less than prepared and/or excited about it. It has been a really hard training season for me b/c of many things – life has just thrown a lot at me lately that has been hard to handle.

    This post is reminding me to just go and have fun and live in the moment. Thank you – I will remember your words this weekend.

  23. 2chickschallenge says:

    You are a great inspiration. I am not a mother or a wife, just a single chick working full time, going to school and running at every opportunity I get and I still can relate to you.

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